She Surfaces
Saturday, November 7, 2009 at 11:19AM 
"Ring the bells that still can ring
Forget your perfect offering.
There is a crack, a crack in everything
That's how the light gets in
That's how the light gets in..."
"Anthem" Leonard Cohen
I could offer a lot of excuses for neglecting this little blog of mine. I probably will. I haven't written in over a week. I am not a serious blogger. I have no agenda. I don't have a main focus. Writers are told to write about what they know best, to write about what interests them, to write about their passions. When I was young, I mistakenly believed that in order to write well and to live well, I needed to look outside myself. I thought that my world was small. I became very busy becoming educated, creating a career, becoming someone. I realize now that I was always someone. I was me. I lived and existed deep inside myself. Now, I have come full circle. I have basically "been there and done that" and I have more life behind me than left ahead of me. I know now that to write well and to live well, all that I need to do is to look inside myself. I blog here to write about my life. My life is about my family, my friends, my home, reading and cooking and travel. Those are the things I know well. Those are my passions. Each of those things resides in a special place inside of me, some cerebral storage area. Maybe that is what a soul is, a depository of memories and desires.
All that has led me to this now. Sometimes I don't write because I worry that I don't have anything to share but drivel and mundanity. I am revising that thought. I think everyone's life is interesting. No two are alike. I'm not writing here to create the next great American novel. I am writing here to share myself with my friends and family, to reach out and stay connected in the most elemental and basic way, saying "This is what I think, this is what I believe, these are the people (and that includes dogs) that I love and care about, this is my home, my garden, my kitchen, my life. Join me. Share with me. Be a part of my life."
I'm not going to worry about what I write anymore or if I please anyone. I am just going to free write. I am going to give you Me, warts and all. It's all I've got to offer. I do appreciate it if you leave me a note saying you were here. There is nothing to join. I pay for this space. No one will send you email spam. Just leave your first name and where you are from. I'm curious to know. Feel free to leave comments if you wish.
Reader Comments (5)
Glad you're back. I'm looking forward to reading what's on your mind.
I always read your blog when I get it in email. I don't usually reply because I am jealous I don't cook as you because it isn't my passion. Strangely enough I am drawn to reading every to every last puncuation markk because I love reading what you have to say under any subject.
So don't quit! I'll reply more! Thanks.
the great day is coming close, dont forget to write about it when you have time. we have a grey and misty morning, was planning my return to dog obedience classes but decided with remmants of cold virus would give it a miss. had a wonderful firework evening with dina and ian. start delayed because so many were trying to get in. the night was fairly mild and dry, and the fireworks were very colourful. all in time to music but think the sound was misjudged and we could hardly hear it. before watching the fireworks we walked around the fairground, ian wanted us to go on some ghastly, sickening, spinning wheel. two sat in a cage shaped like a large wheel and this spun while the arms it was attached to circled. said i didnt mind just watching while they went but dont think dina was keen either. no time left to go on the ghost train or dutch barn, wouldnt have minded a go on those. oh, almost forgot, all credit to ian, he had bought some fresh fish and cooked fish and chips before we went. there is a fresh sea food shop a short distance from them and the fish certainly tasted fresh. lol
Have been wondering you had been
I enjoy your blog
Will see you TOMORROW HOORAY
Nice to see you writing. I sometimes worry when I don't see anything new on your blog. Glad you got to see Holly and Bruce. Keep up the good work. Hope to see you soon.